The third day of my Healing Circle meeting the group from
Vancouver called Callanish, whose mission is to “create a healing space for
people who have been irrevocably changed by cancer”, held a grief circle. As the circle started, I remembered too quickly
flag draped caskets and coming back to a country tired of war where veterans
who had been through too many horrific experiences stood on street corners
begging for food. Steve and I had served
and as the memories resurfaced, I cried and trembled, Steve wrapped his arms
around me as Janie held my hands. Only
one other time had I come close to doing the deep soul work to unleash these
demons, but the circle experience started deep healing that spread as the day
progressed.
After the circle, I remember walking to the cliffs, drawn
by the thunderous sound of the waves as they crashed onto the sand. The light rain mixed with waves of tears dripping
down my face, and as I tried to wipe the waves away, I found I was not
alone. Clumps of purple iris stood
around me linking the ocean with the sky, heaven and earth, and reminded me of my
forever link to warriors like me. Words
from Marcel Proust (1871-1922), in his book The Prisoner; have become
infamously paraphrased, “The only real voyage of discovery consists not in
seeing new sights, but in looking with new eyes”. That day on the cliffs, as the waves roared far
below, and overwhelmed by the deep soul work I had shared the purple iris became
symbols of faith, wisdom, bravery and friendship giving me new eyes and
deepening my healing. Look with new eyes
this week and heal.

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